new beginnings...

not to sound cliche, but this will be the year - 2006 - of not settling for less. this will be the year of staying true to myself and heeding that little voice that says "this is not really what you want, is it?" and this is the year i will buy a new computer and keyboard with a left-sided shift key that works.

I know that every minute counts. i know that there is something to be learned from every experience, good or bad. still, i can't help but think that i've wasted a lot of time waiting for things to evolve... personal relationships, work, home... maybe i just wasn't proactive enough - or - i just kept taking that midcourt shot, just waiting for the ball to go in the basket... when the odds were against it all along. i should have been shooting from another angle... or i should have called it a day and moved on to another sport altogether. (eh - writing in metaphores... also cliche? hm...)

so... it's time for me to change. cut the routine, cut the dull energy, and stop taking that 'one last' midcourt shot. listen to the voice. why do we ever even question a voice that is always right? how many times have we all said to ourselves "i knew i shouldn't have or should have done that"? - we know, and yet we question because we are afraid that if he inner voice is wrong... we will lose something... someone.. some opportunity. that's it - i have to stop being afraid that the inner voice is going to lead me astray - stop fearing and start trusting - - after all, the "inner voice" is me.