Monday, February 18, 2008

SOMETIMES YOU JUST MISS THINGS

Memories are like little blasts of wind change, they can just creep up on you without warning. Usually they are sparked by a smell, a photo, a song, or a word. The more meaning they have to you the stronger feelings they evoke. The human brain and the human heart working together. We are slaves to them, like it or not.

Memories can be either really hurtful or really lovely.  You can't always pick and choose, so you just have to go with the flow of the moment as it enters your consciousness.  And then there are times when you avoid what you know will prompt a memory... avoidance is the fear of not getting the better of the two extremes. But I forge ahead anyway, and pull out the memory box... and even though it's a mix of bitter and sweet, it makes me miss the sweet and sprinkle that with a little sadness on top. Memories are also markers of where you once were - where you are now - and where you're headed.  Bitter and sweet - they serve  a useful purpose.

Here's Ministry's cover of the Grateful Dead's "Friend of the Devil" - at the Bridge School Benefit 1994:






5 comments:

Unknown said...

it's probably totally ironic, and i know i'm the last person you expect to comment, but you may remember, speaking of memories, that this is the 1 year anniversary of my friend Ethan's death.

Sun Follower said...

I hadn't remembered that, but appropriately, Ethan was a kind soul that left behind many lovely memories for his friends and family.

Yes, you are the last person I expected to comment, but it's nice that you read it, I hoped you would.

The Grunt said...

This post reminds me of the Joan Baez song "Diamonds and Rust".

Sun Follower said...

I always felt like she was singing about Dylan in that song.

Keshi said...

just beautiful!

**But I forge ahead anyway, and pull out the memory box.

u put that so elegnatly.

ols tattered sad n happy Memories r my stepping stones to the future, no matter what.

Keshi.